I think I'm going to have a heart attack.

I'm so pissed right now. Mostly because I feel like an ass. A real big ass. I keep thinking about shit I did and said and it hurts type ass. I went out with my roommate to a bar. We met up with some girls that he works with. They're all hot save for one. SO guess which one wants to bone me? Yup. And guess which ones act like they dont know me when they're dancing in their little dance circle. My friend is dancing and laughing it up with them while I'm on the outside like an asshole. I'm too sober NOT to feel like an asshole. One of the girls doesnt even make eye contact with me. SO thats going great. Then theres this one girl that I'm practically in love with. I text her stupid shit every once in awhile and I even left a drunk message on her cell phone saying I love her or something. Im not even sure what I said. So, I want to get with this bitch then I find out tonight that she had a boyfriend. FUCK. I wouldnt text her all that shit if I knew. Now I realize why she acted so damn weird around me that night. I see her boyfriend and he the type of guy you would expect to be "the boyfriend". He's some pretty boy in a button down shirt. I see him and all I can think about is breaking his damn nose. Thing is hes probably bigger than me. Not like I would really fight him anyway, I just would like to know that I could beat him. So I'm jealous of my friend that all these girls like him and are dancing with him and not me. I'm pissed that they are ignoring me. Then my paranoid ass is thinking that this girl I want to get with told these girls that I want to get with her, keep him away, or some shit like that. The girl always says she doesnt like to dance. The fuck if she wasnt dancing tonight. I read this girl all wrong. I thought she was single. I still feel like an ass right now, so I can barely think. I really can't describe how stupid I feel right now. I kinda feel like I just got caught by Chris Hanson. Or my mom caught me jerking off to animal porn. Gotta sleep, so I turn all this anger to depression so I can lower my heart rate.